Tuesday, June 29, 2010

..."I'll hold you, I will catch you;When you feel like you're falling. And I will be near you, I will hear you;When you are calling"...

... the following song is dedicated to someone so close and yet zillion light years away... cold ... indifferent... lost... (sad?)... sigh!

(download the song here and then enjoy the lyrics along with it! *)

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I
Dennis: Can turn the greyest sky blue.
Melvin: I can make it rain, whenever I want it to.
Oh, I
Eddie: I can build a castle from a single grain of sand.
Paul: I can make a ship sail, uh, on dry land.

Dennis: But my life is incomplete and I'm so blue. 'Cause I can't get next to you.

I can't get next to you, babe. (Next to you)
I can't get next to you. (I just can't get next you)
I can't get next to you, babe.
I can't get next to you.

I
Dennis: Can fly like a bird in the sky.
Eddie: Hey, and I can buy anything that money can buy.
Oh, I
Paul: I can turn a river into a raging fire.
Melvin: I can live forever if I so desired.

Eddie: Unimportant are all the things I can do. 'Cause I can't get next to you.

I can't get next to you, babe. (No matter what I do)
I can't get next to you.
Uh-ya

[Instrumental]

Ooo-Ooo
Ooo-Ooo
Chica boom, chica boom
Chica boom, boom, boom

Dennis: I can turn back the hands of time, you better believe I can.
I
Otis: I can make the seasons change, just by waving my hand.
Oh, I
Eddie: I can change anything from old to new.
Paul: The things I want to do the most, I'm unable to do.

Dennis: Unhappy am I with all the powers I possess. 'Cause girl you're the key to my happiness.
Eddie: And I

Can't get next to you.

Dennis:
Girl, you're blowing my mind 'cause I can't get...(Next to you...babe)
Can't you see these tears I'm crying? I can't get... (Next to you....babe)
Girl, it's you that I need. I gotta get...(Next to you...babe)
Can't you see these tears I'm crying? I can't get... (Next to you...babe)
I, I, I, I... I can't get...(Next to you...babe)
I, I, I, I... I can't get...(Next to you...babe)
Girl, you're blowing my mind...
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Saturday, June 26, 2010

..."comfortably numb"...

… wokhay! … so i am tagged (again!) ... saying that i’ve been tagged sounds like saying i am a dog or something, but then it is less damaging to your self-esteem and other related emotions and physiological and psychological responses of your body to say it in the former way! …

… to complete this tag all i have to do is answer the questions which the ever elusive, legendary and immensely popular with kids and married women alike, the one and only, the big daddy of all, the chosen one… our very own the bald guy (originally?) asked on his blog and then tagged chanz … who in turn very cleverly tagged ‘who-ever reads this post’… btw i translated the full form of TBG in hindi and then realized it is more respectful if i keep thy ‘name’ in angrezi

… now… after completing the tag the person is supposed to come-up with different questions and tag more innocent docile unaware (cute?) seductively charming handsome (bald??) sad frustrated loving caring busy indifferent ignorant elusive talkative friendly lazy hyper psycho blah blah blah blah people (chose your pick!) … who will bear the curse of the falling rain drop if they don’t complete it by answering these (or even more weird* questions!)…

… so here are my responses… may my crush bless me with her love and affection…

1. what one material thing are you hoping/ scoping to inherit?
ans: a house. you want the details? … well… i hope some architect reads this … preferably a female (they are more creative that’s why! wipe off that smile from your cute face!)… please please please!

2. you're driving. it's great weather. attractive member of opposite sex in expensive car looks at you and half-smiles. you're in a relationship. do you return the look and half-smile back?
ans: why not? a smile has nothing to do with ‘you r in a relationship’ blah! blah! blah!... btw which car? ;-)

3. can't smell or can't taste? for six months, and if you had to chose, would you rather lose your sense of smell or not be able to taste anything?
ans: the smell. don’t remember i smelled anything worth smelling in a long time (… trust me i haven’t and if your heart is melting… send me some flowers!) … i mean… even the food from mess/office canteen/cafeteria/hotel is not that good smelling… now it tastes okay… but then that is the only reason it makes it to my intestines…

4. pick a situation
a. you're 42. would you rather go without sex for three years and win a lottery after that, enabling you to never have to work again? or
b. get twice the lottery money now (at 42) but have your partner sleep with your boss?
ans: the first one. anyone suggesting the second option to me will rest in peace.

5. what's a quicker turn off, bad pronunciation or maroon lipstick?
ans: maroon? yuck! eew! aargh! aaiaaiyo! illa! grrr! … you got the answer?? ;-)

6. would you rather your kid turn out to be a nymphomaniac or gay? (for my amusement, please answer in the format: i would rather my kid be ---)
ans: i would rather my kid be a nymphomaniac.

7. for which one thing have you not forgiven your mother?
ans: ah! can’t think of anything!...

8. would you rather go bald or lose your front tooth?
ans: bald! can’t live a toothless life! and now i know tbg is missing front tooth! ;-)

9. your sibling is sleeping with your married close friend. who do you go to first, sibling or married close friend?
ans: married friend first…

10. when was the last time you cried that wasn't while watching a movie?
ans: long long time ago… (unless you count the ‘almost’ category!)…

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

..."Nobody believes a rumor until it's officially denied"...

... fear...

... why do we fear from 'things'? ... events? ... people?... and even unknown?... we fear something will go wrong... something bad will happen... we may end-up hurt... physically... emotionally... maybe even spiritually!... our strength will wane... our beliefs will be shattered... we will face the mockery of the world... humiliation... even wrath maybe? ... we fear we may hurt those who love us... care for us... why? ... why do we fear? ...

... once in a while there comes a situation... an event... a moment... when i feel a sudden rush of vacuum forming inside me... my grandma often uses this term 'haul padna' with a mild tinch of punjabi behavior... everything seems to get sucked inside ... i feel it now... when i come face to face with my fear... i don't want to fear anything... anyone...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

..."hi! i am atul"...

... i am getting a bit impatient... and i am feeling very very homesick... hopeless... tired... (... 'sick and tired' wala ...) ... frustrated... and i am angry at myself... i have everything to fight for and yet nothing... i know whom to fight against and yet i don't...

... this is getting no where ... i am going nowhere... sigh! i must go to sleep right at this moment...

Friday, June 18, 2010

..."The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!"...

... she called! ... and i was caught off guard!... it was a 'perfect timing' or was it a coincident? ... but then what is coincident but not a perfect timing?... i was not in any meeting... i wasn't driving... i wasn't with anyone... i was by myself... cut-off from the outer world... surrounded by the glass... with 'arrangements' to keep the noise outside... and then it rang... my mobile phone... an unknown number... i never saved her number... why should i?... she ain't gonna call that often... she ain't gonna call at all... that is what i thought till today... but she called... and i am now even more convinced...

... it seems this monsoon is coming with more than it's fair share of usual misery... three women i know are 'down' with something or the other... two i know in flesh and blood and third is in the realm of the Internet... and since u r reading this on the internet... i will begin with Chanz... i think i started following her blog when she posted some pics of her Chandigarh trip... i am still fuzzy about the history but i think i ended up on her blog thru Garry's... and this poor girl, who had to face the daily grind of the legendary Injian hijras for some days... fell down... i mean... literally... in a movie theater... and with 'Sex and the City -2' on the screen... and that's when someone with 'husky voice' asked if she was alright... i do feel bad that she is now 'cooling her heels' in bed... not because she hurt herself but i feel bad that she got herself hurt because of that girl with mosquito repelling body odor AND the movie was Sx&Cty ... phew! ... hope u recover well and soon... and NO i am not going to ask how was the movie...

... second lady i wud like to mention is my Grandmother... almost a decade (perhaps more!) she has avoided the cataract surgery... cleverly taking shelter in the extreme weather conditions of saaddi Dilli... "iss baar to bahut garmai hai, thoda sardiyon mein karaaoongi" ... "iss baar to bahut thand hai... thodi garmiyaan aa jaaen to karati hun!"... and the cycle repeated... however this time her 'usual' doctor was not on duty and this 'new' doctor asked to get the 'eye check-up' ... and there was no escape... my grandma is very wary of 'new' doctors... and there is always a possibility that she she wud come back home if 'her doctor' is not there... so this time (her luck!) she was curtly told that if she didn't acted soon this cud be really very very bad situation... so she relented... and now she has successfully come out of the operation...

... and as if this was not enough... our very own Lady Tao is 'down' with multiple ailments ... thanks to lack of 'acclimatization' ... Mumbai is taking its toll on her... i think she is working way too hard... she needs to slow down... take a break... get lost in the woods... the natural lush dark jungles... and let Japan find her... again...

... i feel women in general have better (magical?) self-healing power... i have seen my mom recovering faster than we can say "mom-you-don't-worry-we-can-handle-this-you-take-care"... but then... once in a while... we all need some TLC... i wish all the ladies speedy recovery... and all the love and care and hugs and kisses... and husky voices to sooth their ears and ....

... and to clear the mystery... the woman who called me earlier this evening was none other than the wife of my gym owner... i mean IF i join this gym... she was the wife of this doctor/owner of the gym... and i think she has won a client ...her perseverance has paid... the 'offer' notwithstanding ... i think she has persuaded me to join the program... i think...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

..."Happiness is your dentist telling you it won't hurt and then having him catch his hand in the drill"...

... shock and awe ... when Big Brother decided to puke on this nation, this term was as abundant in the print and electronic media as is pan-gutkha these days... but i am not going to talk about any war doctrine or anything even remotely related to it...

... i have not been posting any 'verbose' post lately... and there are several reasons behind it ... infact so many that i am not even remembering most of them... actually none of them! ;-) ... so i thought why not post a verbose post, eh? ... so here it is...

... now if u r thinking i am going to bore u with some trivial routine happenings from my life (professional and personal being immaterial!) ... u r probably right! :p ... i mean... do i really have any choice?... i am not capturing the Fashion Trends of India ...

... the thing is that i am pretty happy today... coz i stuffed myself silly with the office nashta today... with full knowledge that i will not be feeling hungry till late in night... and i was stunned when SSC asked me about my blog... something like when u r in a situation that u just don't know how to react... u r conscious of the people around u and still want to ignore them... u were there for some totally different purpose ... u r trying not to concentrate on other things and still...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

... "there are are two ways to spread happiness; either be thelight who shines it or be the mirror who reflects it." ...

... its been quite some time i wrote anything... a 'habit', as they say, takes 23 days to 'develop' ... m not sure how much time it takes to 'lose' one ... i guess i should return with some thing...

Friday, June 11, 2010

"You have not lived a perfect life, unless you have given something to someone who will never be in a position to repay you"

... first of all... this is for Himani... Welcome :) ...

... i feel funny being under some invisible 'pressure' to post on my blog and not being pissed off about it... i guess i am experiencing some kind of adulation... from a humble beginning about nothing to a blog which is about ... well... nothing...

few observations i made today...

...it was third consecutive day i have not touched my newspaper... alright... i picked it from my front door... but tht's it... they all there... resting on the table...

...heavy rains can be of immense help... i got a car wash without breaking a sweat!

...it pains when you are two tables away and still...

...i have not been blogging regularly... and still added a follower!

... it doesn't matter how early it is... if it's your li'l sis on the other side of phone saying 'good morning' it IS good morning!

... and even though i ended up working exact 11 hours straight... i am smiling 'coz it is June 11 today

Thursday, June 10, 2010

..."there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren’t going to do anything productive for the rest of the day..."

... well... the title says it all... and i need some sleep... this is going to be a very laung summer! ...
(following post is in retrospect)

... rumors are flying in all the directions and they are mostly 'bad news' ... at least to me... first of all there was no news on REFER ... so i wrote an email and got the reply that crushed the seed in the seed that i had planted for 'a change'... it was a very professional one liner reply and very prompt by the usual standards... that i am not the one... i cud feel the darkness that followed that reply... may be it was the minor blip in the voltage supply... nevertheless ...

... the day had only started... it was 0630... the mail was sent around 2200 on 8th... i shld have read it at home... good that i missed... atleast i got a sound sleep... atleast i enjoyed the cool breeze while coming to office in the morning... at least ... well... there it was...

... so to makeup for the loss i decided to finish one long pending work and made it a point that i will finish it today... no matter what... and i succeeded... it was finished before lunch! (sometimes i feel i need some negative feedback to in a positive way to energize myself) ...

(ends)

... and then... one glance at lunchtime yesterday... ' my Summer Hartley from 'Definitely maybe''

... i feel better today... June 10th 2010...

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

..."we regret to inform you that..."

... i can't recall the exact message ... probably they wanted to say: "... you are NOT the guy we are looking for..." ...

... well... to borrow from Garryz' FB status:

"Hope is just like Phoenix...it dies and rises again. From the embers it becomes the fire itself. Hope is the last resort...That pole star which keeps us sail through the most difficult of times. Try your best not to let that light die in you..."

amen

Sunday, June 6, 2010

..."Wandering re-establishes the original harmony which once existed between man and the universe"...

... a promise made is debt unpaid... so goes the cliche...

... it was one of those 'eureka moment' day yesterday... i realized that i haven't posted in days ... and then i saw this scrap from Vikz on Chirkut... and then couple of courtesy messages later another realization drew upon me... Vikz and his wife Ritz are returning to India... for good...

... it is always hectic and tense when u have to move ur house... now imagine planning and packing everything when you have to leave the country! ... and in those moments i made a promise... "aaj ki post dedicated to u" ... and that was when i had returned from office... it was aready past 00:00 hrs and with Chanz posting about Ghosts and stuff, the maahaul got charged with nostalgic emotions... so i knew i had to write about this guy and there were still good memories ... if not all from school time... atleast i remember the Patiala trip...

... however we ended-up discussing about starting a joint 'project' ... i dunno how he struck upon the idea (or was it vice-versa!) ... to start a group blog... Him and I to start with... and other like minded people can chip-in later... now i can bet my silky mustache upon the fact that my fellow blog readers have not seen Ritz photographic skills... and so i can safely and confidently claim that she has an eye for photography... and so i suggested that She can join in as well... while Vikz suggested that Pooh be a part of the project as well... "she can write about management stuff" he said... now THAT wud be interesting!...

... coming to more important things about it... who wud host it? ... the contenders were Blogger.com and Wordpress.com ... latter won... y? hell y! ... and then came the difficult part... what this blog will be about??? i mean seriously...

... two guys... one in UK packing to return back to Native ... chatting with his school mate somewhere in Western Injia in the middle of the night... thinking about starting a joint blog... and THEN thinking 'about what?'...

... and then a marijuana minute later we decided that this will be about travelling... a travel blog... a travelogue.... (another one?) ... i mean ... there are zillions... right? ... right! .... but hey! this is not just ANY travelogue ... this will be a niche project by two gud 'ol skoolmates... so keep reading for more ...

(latest: Vikz called soon after landing here... i am touched! feel good... this is going to be a good sunday... the pizza is on the way...)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

..."There is a theory about remote existence of honest politicians. Unfortunately, no one ever heard about it"...

... Feel Act Communicate Think ... and if u try to make an acronym... FACT ... this is what we all do, all the time... not necessarily all at the same time and definitely not in that order... why i am telling you about this? ... well... never mind...

... i realized that i am becoming more and more conscious about my goals and the vision and the SWOT ... thanks to the 2 day workshop/program/training... now this may sound like a good thing... 'coz it increased my awareness from the Unconscious-Incompetent stage to the Conscious-Incompetent stage...

... whats painful however is the fact that i've been in that Conscious-Incompetent stage for quite some time... i was already aware of that... and this workshop/program/training reminded me of my pathetic situation like 200 times in 2 days... so i feel even more miserable!...

... the "Be Brutal to Yourself" motto was well hitting ... so well hitting that it still pains when my mind wanders into the "action" part of the FACT ...

... while i need to take some rest and devote myself towards the "flight plan" ... my "Flight Plan"... u enjoy the lyrics of the beautiful song by Notting HillBillies... the link to the song can be found in previous post...


Railroad Worksong:
Working on a railroad for a dollar a day
Working on a railroad for a dollar a day
Working on a railroad good buddy for a dollar a day
Gotta get my money gotta get my pay

Take this hammer take it to the captain
Take this hammer take it to the captain
Take this hammer good buddy take it to the captain
Tell him I'm gone tell him I'm gone

If he asks you was I running
If he asks you was I running
If he asks you good buddy was I running
Tell him I was flying tell him I was flying

If he asks you was I laughing
If he asks you was I laughing
If he asks you good buddy was I laughing
Tell him I was crying tell him I was crying

This old hammer rings like silver
This old hammer rings like silver
This old hammer good buddy rings like silver
Shine like gold good buddy and it shine like gold

Working on a railroad for a dollar a day
Working on a railroad for a dollar a day
Working on a railroad good buddy for a dollar a day
Gotta get my money gotta get my pay
Gotta get my money gotta get my pay
Gotta get my money gotta get my pay