i've been suffering lately due to the performance anxiety, albeit mildly... and i'm not talking about the one that makes us all blush blush... it's just that sometime back i noticed that i've posted my 299th blog entry... and an idea got herself impregnated in my mind, that the 300th blogpost should be... ummm... more meaningful... and thus i abstained myself from frequenting here, lest i write something impromptu and spoil the occasion of reaching such an important milestone... and so the days lingered and... well... nothing meaningful got written...
... and just like that, i ended up 'wasting' whatever time was left at my disposal after the office and evening lectures... and when i say wasting i mean i regret reading all those news stories, watching movies, 'surfing'... u get the drift... and late last night, when my full bandwidth was restored, i ended up watching even more videos at youtube... it started from a tweet which was linked to a blog post and i found a reference of a stand-up comedian, who made a comic reference of rape (and was later trolled!), i googled his name and one thing led to another and i ended up watching two videos of approx one hour each on US marines' training... and the chirping of birds outside my window made me realised it was 4 in the morning and i've been up all night!
... last time i did something like this was in the month of april, when i was deeply madly passionately 'inclined' towards a girl... and it was happening so fast that even though i could sense something was amiss, i kept going... now, i won't go into the details but that whole experience moved my perceptions slightly... about many things... including the ever so easily ignored question about the purpose of our lives...
... and while i'm dwelling on that topic, u should take some time to ponder as well... or maybe you've already figured it out... in any case, to wrap this teaser article i would like to quote a tweet from someone i follow...
... and just like that, i ended up 'wasting' whatever time was left at my disposal after the office and evening lectures... and when i say wasting i mean i regret reading all those news stories, watching movies, 'surfing'... u get the drift... and late last night, when my full bandwidth was restored, i ended up watching even more videos at youtube... it started from a tweet which was linked to a blog post and i found a reference of a stand-up comedian, who made a comic reference of rape (and was later trolled!), i googled his name and one thing led to another and i ended up watching two videos of approx one hour each on US marines' training... and the chirping of birds outside my window made me realised it was 4 in the morning and i've been up all night!
... last time i did something like this was in the month of april, when i was deeply madly passionately 'inclined' towards a girl... and it was happening so fast that even though i could sense something was amiss, i kept going... now, i won't go into the details but that whole experience moved my perceptions slightly... about many things... including the ever so easily ignored question about the purpose of our lives...
... and while i'm dwelling on that topic, u should take some time to ponder as well... or maybe you've already figured it out... in any case, to wrap this teaser article i would like to quote a tweet from someone i follow...
"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities"
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